I lived in this state of mind for long time. It gives you a certain kind of pleasure. sad/dark pleasure. being in your own world, saying that Yes I am failure. This is my destiny . Look around people are suffering, dying, Sickness, crying. You are closing one part of your mind. An eternal failure .
Life is not that sad. Now i see the bright side. Smiles around me. Love in different form. Nature and its beauty.
“I go to sleep alone, and wake up alone. I take walks. I work until I’m tired. I watch the wind play with the trash that’s been under the snow all winter. Everything seems simple until you think about it. Why is love intensified by abscence? ”
This is perfect expression of Melancholic state.